vomit

so here's my day

I'm still at the dental office. need i say more?
I had a wonderful interview with the office manager of the Physical Therapy department right across the street from friday's in cascades.then came home, had a nice dinner, watched some tv....then opened an email that let me know my saturday person just quit.

i feel like a fucking failure. I feel like I..ME..I have done something wrong to cause the disintegration of my business. I do NOT see this as an opportunity for change. I do NOT feel good about it. I feel like I have been making poor decisions and I am fucking crying! ME...I'm just broken.
I do not know where to turn other than my friends. Shane is right and the little voice in my head is right...this will all work out but FUCK...how much more will it take? when did it go left and I went right? It feels like it took a turn years ago (the busienss) that I missed...Granted, I've been saying that I'd love to NOT be the boss anymore...maybe that spoken thought has finally manifested itself? The new space in reston...well, it's temporary and it's not mine.